1 Corinthians 8

I've been reading thru the book of 1 Corinthians (sporadically, I'll admit) and I'm really enjoying it. I took a class in college that was just on 1&2 Corinthians and we spent most of the semester on this book. I am reading it now in the ESV and still learning so much. Today I read chapters 8-10 and seeing that I need some major attitude adjustments in my heart. In chapter 8 Paul starts talking about knowledge. Knowledge is a good thing, right? I mean, it's not bad. Well, according to Paul, it can be. The knowledge he is talking about is knowledge that something is not wrong. In their time, the situation was meat, because meat was used to offer sacrifices, and God had specifically stated what meat was to be eaten, or given to priests or burned. But they were eating meat offered to idols, not their own sacrifices... which I guess God hadn't addressed in the law. (I haven't read the law lately so don't quote me on that.) On top of that, they were no longer "under the law" because of Christ, so they weren't offering sacrifices and Christ had kind of restated the law, and all the priest stuff and temple stuff was changing. All this set the stage for Christians who understood the situation to realize that meat offered in sacrifice was just meat. Idols and false gods are not real, so why would it matter if they ate the meat that someone else offered to them? They weren't offering, so really they weren't wrong. The problem Paul brings up is that not everyone understood this. Not everyone had this "knowledge". And the ones who had this knowledge were become a little prideful of their freedom, and instead of considering the situation carefully they were just acting on their freedom and eating meat. The hardest part is that when they ate meat, no one knew if it was meat they got at the market or from an idol sacrifice. (sound kinda like "If you go to the movie theater, no one will know which movie you're going to?") That's why Paul says 8:7 "However, not all possess this knowledge. But some, through former association with idols, eat food as really offered to an idol, and their conscience, being weak, is defiled." I noticed that the person isn't weak, their conscience, on this topic, is weak. It seems like that means they would be easily tempted to go back to former idol worship. Modern day example? Someone gets saved and comes out of a very worldly lifestyle. They love the Lord and want to grow, so they abandon anything that has to do with their old way of life - music, choice of companions, hobbies, where they spend time, money, etc. Let's say the hobby they abandoned was, something just for an example, maybe beer-pong. Then as they are growing, they go to a Christians house one day and are asked to play Ping-Pong. This is silly, but just go with my example. Now, we know that ping-pong is not wrong. But lets use it in this chapter, since we don't have issues with meat causing people to stumble. Paul says (example inserted) "However, not all posses this knowledge. But some, through former association with [drinking, play ping pong] as really [being in a bar], and their conscience, being weak, is defiled." and to take it a step further, (v10) "For if anyone sees you who have knowledge [playing Ping-Pong in your house], will he not be encouraged, if his conscience is weak, to [play beer-pong]?" Ok, so this example is really far-fetched, but the point is the same, without any paraphrasing - v11-12 "And so by your knowledge this weak person is destroyed, the brother for whom Christ died. Thus, sinning against your brothers and wounding their conscience when it is weak, you sin against Christ." Which is why Paul concludes in v 13 "Therefore, if [Ping-Pong] makes my brother stumble, I will never [play Ping-Pong] lest I make my brother stumble." This is tough stuff. This requires so much from us. First of all, it requires that we be perceptive to believers around us. Not just new believers, but also believers who have "weak" consciences on certain topics. A weak conscience does not mean the person is weak. Maybe we could use the word "tender" instead. The point is that this persons conscience will not allow them to do this and Romans 14:23 is very clear "But whoever has doubts is condemned if he [plays Ping-Pong], because the [playing] is not from faith. For whatever does not proceed from faith is sin." No ifs, ands or buts about it. Second, it requires that we be willing to set aside anything that could cause a brother or sister in Christ to be tempted to sin. If that believer has a tender conscience toward certain music, going to the movies, or playing Ping-Pong, we should not allow our knowledge to "puff [us] up" but instead we should choose "love [which] builds up.' (Rom 8:1) Third, I think this passage calls us to consider whether we are acting out of knowledge or love. I see so many ways in my life that are characterized by "I have no conscience problem with this situation" and that's the only standard I set. It goes so. much. deeper. than just my conscience! I would never want to make something any issue more important than a brother in Christ's spiritual well-being. "Therefore, if ________ makes my brother stumble, I will never __________, lest I make my brother stumble." Lord, help me to lay down my knowledge of what I am rightfully allowed to do, that causes me to be puffed up(and defensiveness is a good sign of "puffed-ness"), and instead take up love, which allows me to consider my brothers and sisters in Christ and build them up. Because I know that "[Ping-Pong]does not commend us to God. We are no worse off if we [play Ping-Pong] and no better off if we do", I can set down my right and take that opportunity to put another believer ahead of myself.

Digging deep hurts

You are going to have to take all my posts and average them together to get what my life is like on average, because it seems I only post on the highs and lows. The average is just to... well, average. Uninteresting and not post-worthy. Maybe someday I'll post on an average emotion. If I ever remember to notice it. :) Well, today is a low. On top of being emotionally a little threadbare (physically tired, college best friend in ICU fighting for her life) I feel like such a failure on so many levels. PLEASE don't comment in argument, I'm not fishing for compliments just to boost my self-image or anything. Sometimes I just think God wants to remind us that without Him, we are NOTHING. If I do something good or right, it is because of Him, no credit to me. That is no pity-party kick-off, it is a true statement that I have to be reminded of. Apparently I forget a lot, cuz God reminds me pretty regularly. Lately (pretty much this week, maybe longer) I have really struggled to do what I need to do, whether it's dirty dishes, or keeping the house picked up. And that's just the beginning. I am seeing God reveal my heart in so many situations and it's not just an issue of self control, like I just need to make myself do my job; it's an issue of love. Do I love my family enough to do what is best for them, at the cost of my personal comfort or desires. God is showing me how selfish I am, at my very core. It's not pretty. But I also have to remember that once I allow myself to see what God is showing me, the only hope is to beg Him to change me. Help me. Because I absolutely can't do what He has called me to do without Him. Yes, I must choose to do what I need to do, but I don't have the ability to choose rightly without Him. My weakness becomes His strength. My failures become opportunities for me to accept grace and then, in response, show grace. It's not fun realizing how often I fail, but I'd rather realize it and throw myself back at His feet begging His strength than to continue on in oblivion and never change. Oh how much worse that would be! I think He is tearing down my comfort zone what I do and why in order to show me the right "why" to do what I've been failing. I'm not sure that will make sense to anyone but me. Sorry. Maybe this is a better way to say it: I can make myself do what I'm supposed to do my whole life and still not accomplish my purpose. It's not just about what I do and how I do it, tho that's important. But what He's trying to get to is WHY I do what I do. And the way to show me that is to show my why I DON'T do what I'm supposed to. For some reason that has worked - I'm seeing my motives pretty clearly, now I need to work on fixing them. I'd love prayers as I continue to work through what He is teaching me. Pray that I'd be tender to His teaching and open to what He wants to show me. Thanks!

Quiet book

It's been AGES since I blogged but I am going to try to start up again. :) In November we drove from my house to my parent's which is a 16 hour trip. With a 3 yr old and an 18mo old. It went amazingly well, thanks to my awesome man who drives overnight so the kids will sleep most of the way. I wanted to be prepared in case they didn't sleep, so I made a few things to keep miss Sunshine occupied. Sugar has about a 15 second attention span so I knew if she didn't sleep, no amount of entertainment would be enough. But I packed reusable shopping bags for each kid with things that might help. One of the things I made was a felt quiet book. It is simple enough to do and fun to design but it takes some time. I cut and sewed at night while I watched a movie and it took me several nights, but I made lots of pages in mine. Feel free to copy anything I did. I cut several colors to the same size and then sewed or colored the background. For example, the snowman and butterfly bodies are sewn on the page, and the waves I just drew on with a sharpie. Then I cut out each piece and we keep them in a clear bag with a zipper. I punched holes in the pages and attached office rings to hold them together.
Happy cutting!
P.S. Our favorite is definitely the faces page. :)